My thoughts jumble up. My mind can’t think straight, nor even to decide which path to go. Too many possibilities, that I don’t see anything clear and easier. I am confused. Scared of the opportunities, lies in front of me. I am scared to choose, because am greedy and I want it all. I am…

I know, for some of you will think am an extremist. A rabbit, jumping here and there. I need excitement, I need goal. I thrive in last minutes, stressful time, the unknown situation. That’s me. When talk about stability, there’s sudden twist in my tummy. A butterfly trying to free itself from cocoon. That’s how…

I don’t know, I think this is hormonal speaking. My hormone messing up with my head again. Am gloomy, in thoughts, terrified. The wise one told me to push those negative fear/ thinking away. An idle mind is the devil’s workshop, as the English sayings. Probably it’s been a long weekend for me, with no…

Hey ya all !! Happy new year !! I am wishing ya all great prosperity for this dragon year. I get confused reading the chinese horoscope, but.. oh well. I’ll try to read & fathom it some other time. I am back in Kota Kinabalu now. Nothing much happening here, I’m being the lazy bum…

Hey, this is a bit way way earlier that I normally do. I need to keep myself in check and to keep me sane. This emotional turmoil has taken a toll in my life. I am enjoying december but I am experiencing mixed painful heart-shattering moments. I do. Try to hold it up together, keeping…

It was the best 4 months of my 2011 and I am going to cherish it forever, even it’s just a brief friendship. Like what I blog previously, I am anticipating a heartbreak this month, and it is creeping in slowly now. I got to be strong. I am stronger than I was before. I can handle…

Selamat hari raya everyone. I’m blogging from the Summer Place’s balcony, having my coffee & kuih cincin for breakfast overlooking the Penang bridge. It such a sad day, I don’t know why am I being emotional. This is not the first oversea raya for me. I havent been home for raya for the past say…

I know it’s unwise to blog at these hour in the morning where I should be continue working on the presentation slides and/or sleeping. I got to wake up early tomorrow to work. However, upon talking to my fellow studio mate just now (he were having problem deciding for career-change, so I give a little…

I complaint a lot, on tiny little things. On how things are not moving according to the plan,  or that something unexpected ruin a perfect moment. It’s like that. But nothing is perfect right? A great day is ruined by such a few second humiliation, doesn’t mean the whole day is ruined right? It is…

I am anticipating of meeting my new boyfriend. Yes, I am going to have a new boyfriend from next week on, and he is as handsome as ever. I’m sorry guys, I am taken. His name is bumblebee. No, not the yummy-licious camero. He’s not even yellow. Awwww. Anyway, I should be grateful of him….

Hey ya all. It’s coming to the end of the weekend. I am here, still. In Penang. Trying to make myself busy and happy, but in the end. I feel awful. I spent the weekend, just in the room as I am under the weather. As mentioned previously, I am having a severe dehydration, my…

One day, I am terribly grateful to god that I live this life, and another day, I am asking Him why test me in this way. Either way, I am grateful to have been tested and granted happiness even though it was just a brief. Life is like that. You can’t weep and cry and…

Normally people would be estatic in getting their first cheque again. I wish it would be the same, but I feel sad upon receiving one just now. Not that I’m not being grateful nor too demanding. It is just that I don’t feel appreciated. If I was the boss, I would analyze each candidate their…

Hey! It’s tuesday and I can’t wait for tomorrow. I got a meeting to attend at the client’s conference room. Ah. It’s been a productive tuesday. I can’t help but to smile while working on the design and calculating the preliminary cost of the design. I have to explain to the client tomorrow on how…

It hurts me sometime when I got an impression of being too sexy & sultry in my appearance and the way I carry myself. I was told I’m too sexy and that I’m a heartbreaker when I was talking to one guy in the club. That hurts me a little. Yes, I may be quite…

Hey ya all. I’m here again. Blogging from my own little nest. Well, nothing much happening today except that I went to the site with my senior LA, for site inspection. And guess what, we wore high heels walking around the site. Hahahaha. I am still busy building a sketchup model for another project. Apart…