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Resolution 2015


You can refer to my 2014 resolution here https://anggun3.wordpress.com/2013/12/10/2014-resolution/ Let’s recap on what I have done so far this year: 1. To select people that worth keeping, and letting go those who don’t appreciate me. I mean, friends that will do anything for you, and friends that only be there for me when it is convenience…

Reverberation


Hi everyone. Am back in Kota Kinabalu again this weekend. I started the day yesterday by waking up at 3 am, getting ready and last minute packing (as usual), and managed to get a taxi before 4am. I reached KLIA 2 by 4.30am and waited for my boss.  He came a bit later, saying that…

Maya


I met Maya last night. She’s adorable, 4 years old with brown eyes, fair skin, aryan-feature with a big smile as mine. She wore a flowery dress with a ribbon tying her soft, fine hair. She’s my only girl. I never seen anyone so vividly in my dreams as she appeared last night. She’s so…

The reason why am cold-hearted


I come from a place where i dont show off any affection towards everybody else. I keep a very strict, cold blooded, no feeling kinda person, Am not lovey-dovey, mushy-nashy, and definitely not a PDA’s. Public display affection. Not even to the love ones. Not even to my parents. It doesnt mean i don’t love…

if only …


It’s been.. a year since i moved out of Penang. Been years since i lost trust in friends. Been years since i ever trust anyone again. I was contemplating.. reading old messages. Remembering old memories, thinking why did it happen. Why people lost along the way? Why suddenly the warmest friendship turns cold turkey. Why,…

checklist


I know it’s unnecessary, am almost 30 and i think you shouldn’t narrow down a person by your own checklist. Hence, i never have a checklist. But for the sake of fun, here is my checklist, Shall Ya take this seriously. Yes, you shall. 1. Spontaneous 2. Thoughtful & sensitive 3. Sensual in bed 4….

Caught up in a reverie


I was, in deep contemplation when driving back from KLCC back to my home just now. There’s one question lingers in my head, when i was watching the latest episode of How I Met Your Mother. You see, I’ve always been the tough cookie & independent Robin Scherbatsky, but somehow  I am as hopeless as…

Lunch today !!


Since today would be my last day of CNY holiday, i decided to cook myself lunch. it’s just a mash up of what i have in the fridge, and decided to do roasting instead of the normal skillet or pan frying. And… tadaaaa… Roasted herbs chicken with portobello mushroom, Potato fritter & steamed vegetables on…

Intervention


How i wish life would be easier. How i wish my life would be like my working years in KK, roughly 6 years ago. How i wish life would be that simple, i have loving but yet, overprotective parents. I have super awesome friends & colleagues, i have challenging boss, and yet, i feel she’s…

A test to friendship


Am at the corner stall, near my place.. Waiting for the workshop to open and while waiting, am having my breakfast now. Just a teh tarik and roti canai. It strike me last night, when my car won’t start, i contacted a few so-called friends and guess what, nobody came. Some lied their location (hello,…

A struggle


A struggle. Constant hardwork, and yet, you can’t reap much from all the effort. Fucked up right? This is what happening to the young people in Malaysia nowadays. For young professional, they are to be burdened by debts once they graduated from university (thank god, I got a scholarship). But what about getting a car…

Denial


I can’t help but to discuss or open up the discussion on few major topics that I am trying to ignore. I am in denial. I refuse to believe that am getting older, that am 28 years old now. I refuse to believe that I have more responsibility to myself than before. I refuse to…

what life going to be


Hello all. I am currently on board the Air Asia flight back to Penang. This is the first time am taking the night flight BKI-PEN and I can’t help to mesmerize the beautiful dark sky of Kota Kinabalu. It’s just a few minutes away that am living the town, but I started to miss it…

Mid-year resolution


I will make a pack I want to change on the following: 1. I promise not to blame myself for anything anymore; 2. I deserve better than you. if you don’t want me, it’s your loss; I’ll find someone better to hang out with/ friends to depend on; 3. I promise to be happier, I…

Resignation


I find the loss of passion for writing when I started working in Penang, due to the depressing moment/busy social life/never ending work. I am becoming a bitter person for the past 2 years. Nothing and nobody can help me to turn back myself to the person I used to be, full of hope &…

Sunday blues


Hello everyone. Am having coffee and cake at one of my favorite coffee shop here in Georgetown, Penang. Trying to cheer myself up with coffee and writing. I feel so depressed and at loss there few weeks. Too much things going on, and will happen this few months. I feel so, alone. It is going…

Letter to the 10 years old iDa


To my 10 years old self, Don’t be Fred that you’ll be alone. You will be alone, but you are stronger than anyone you’ll ever met. Don’t be worry if you don’t have much friend, as most friend come and go. Don’t be scared of darkness and storm, for you sail great in these condition….

Change


Hello. How’s April 2013 treating you so far? Good I hope. I’ve been on sick leave for two days due to unfortunate event. I got poisoning. I feel like I have yet to write a lot here but whenever I open up the WordPress app on my ipad, am at a loss of words. I’ve…