Would you go forward or would you stop for a while, look at your past and maybe, reverse for a while and then move forward? I can’t seem to decide which road to take at this moment. Yes, the past looks tempting but I need to live my current life. I have put ambition, hope…

It’s been a while since i pour my heart out here. Guess everyone must be thinking I am emotionally stable by now. Nope. I just divert my thoughts and feeling and concentrate more into work-studio work. But deep down, I am still…aching, but slowly healing. Too much drama and complication going on in my life….

I feel terribly uneasy. I wanted to share everything here but I can’t. This is way to personal. But I am quite disappointed with myself. Why am I making myself vulnerable? Why can’t I just wear my shield like I used to? Why do I have to be trapped in this dimension? Can I get…

I am not looking forward for the horoscope statement below: We all know that you never fall head over heels in love – you are far too sensible for that to happen. And anyway, there is always too much to do. Take care with today’s planetary energy, however, because you might be swept off your…

As far as I hate to admit to myself (and even to the world wide web), I  am unintentionally looking for my mr big. Ok, this is sappy but yep, I do look around, but so far.. he is no where to be found, in Malaysia. Hmm. I am not desperately looking for one, I…

Hey ya all! HOw are you all doing? great I hope. I’m back in my bullet train life, where 24/7 is not enough here. Ah. I’ve been busy with the studio work and thesis research (though most of the time, I’m either sleeping, walking or watching sex & the city rerun). Ha,ha but I’m quite…

Starting this new semester, it seems all I’m doing is the need to fix things. I need to fix my macbook before I’m letting it go, I need to fix my tennis racquet string and the grip as it already worn out, I need to fix the faucet basin as i guess it is clogged,…

It’s been a year since I moved out of Kota Kinabalu. It’s been a year too that I’m trying to pull myself up from the emotional misery. Though I am not heal entirely, but I have moved on. However, upon seeing others have moved on well better than me, I can’t help but to feel…

I’m currently in an automatic situation where I got less than a week to finish up the second project. Argh. It’s fun but it’s kinda hectic for a last minute work. To add another tension & stress, I have yet to finish the urban design assignment, presentation and report for hydrology as well as planting…

I’m stuck!. I’m designing a radial layout for affordable homes and from there, I don’t know how to expand it with a river flowing in the middle of the site, and a rectangular site. Argh. It’s 5 am in the morning & I just finished laying down the townhouses arrangement. I have yet to design…

Life is great. In general, it mark up the journey of one soul, whether a rough or smooth ones; the experiences always will be cherished and stored in one’s mind/heart. I was reminiscing the old days where I struggled to make my way in the environmental field.  My heart warmth when I think of the…

I’m having a random thoughts on the bloke sat next to me during my transit flight PEN-KUL on the 28th December 2009, 11 am. ah. I wish to see him again and ask his name 🙂 he was such a gentlemen and I was head over heel throughout the entire flight. ha, ha. ok maybe…

i hate this part. I hate this silly feeling creeping inside me, again. argh! I’m leaving Kota Kinabalu again tomorrow. I hate the feeling of wanting to go to the beach especially Tanjung Aru so that I can weep about leaving this beautiful place, again. argh. I hate this. I’m dizzy. and I should be…

It’s been zillion years since I last blog and I’m only blogging when I’m down, or too excited to even talk. So, here I am, gloomy friday night and I’m tucked early in bed. I just finished my crash course of acad today. Hooray! but the sad thing is I didn’t get a chance to…