Odyssey to self-discovery

It’s been zillion years since I last blog and I’m only blogging when I’m down, or too excited to even talk. So, here I am, gloomy friday night and I’m tucked early in bed. I just finished my crash course of acad today. Hooray! but the sad thing is I didn’t get a chance to improve on my water color rendering. My holiday full with acad and photoshop classes, work, outstation, hanging out with Piare and of course, going to the gym everyday ( or shall I say, every other day). On top of that, I have to attend, weekly wedding reception, and so on. Very busy. Yes.

I feel I should do something during this one month holiday, but I didn’t. I refrain myself from doing so. Why? I need to learn the art of letting go. I know very well on how to move on. But letting go? dang. I have moved on to another odyssey of my life but I have yet letting go of the past, general speaking. I’m torn between the old & new life (hence, the depression & suffering in the first 5 months of my life in Penang).

I shall believe that if everything meant to be me, or with me; those that anticipated will come back to me. If it doesn’t, then it never meant to be.

I miss the old times but I’m waiting for new adventure to come in life. I can’t wait for 2010 but at the same time I don’t want 2009 to end. I had the time of my life in the first quarter of 2009 but I seriously can’t wait for the third quarter of 2009 to be over. I’m taking every step carefully but I somehow careless in a few, in which i may and may not regret about it.

Come to think of it, that’s life. Cest la vie. Love it, hate it, it’s over- done- it become your past. Your experience. I love to look back & smile of my action. I want no regret in my life. 🙂 I shall take every mistake or dumb luck as some added spices in life & thats the thing that enrich your life. I can’t wait for new things to come to me 🙂

Things, I am referring things to life adventure. I want to travel more. 🙂 See new things, experience new things. Admire new things. Meeting new people, experience new culture, taste new cuisine, dance to new rhythms. Watch sunset at the other side of the world (ibiza, ibiza,ibiza, lol). See, I love to experience new things.

In order to do that, I need to let go of my current condition. I need my mind & emotion free from anything. I am living my dream ( meaning: life directing towards to my dream).

I need to focus on the future, rather than wondering of the past. warghh.

I can’t wait for new year. I can’t wait for new semester to begin. I can’t wait for xiamen. Indonesia. India perhaps?

I can’t wait to do my internship next year. I can’t wait to be back to KL. Ahh. So much to anticipate to new great things.

I can’t wait to design gardens for hotels & commercial. I can’t wait to go back to working life. I can’t wait to do presentation to clients, boring design meeting, and rushing for deadline. 🙂

In the mean time, I am anticipating to learn new things this coming semester. Oh, calculation, construction, hydrology & watershed, horticulture, and more studio work 🙂 oh I hope I can catch up with the rest of the class this semester.

Yes, I can catch up with them! 🙂

Hooray 🙂

I miss piare for the gym & late nite salsa/dinner/club outing.

I love KK too much that I will never let go of my feeling. Sorry peeps, I can let go of other things but not my love for KK. I proudly say that KK is the best place to live in Malaysia. (The great one said Penang is the best, but I disagree, I still love KK – minus the frequent blackout, potholes in 100 m interval.

In the other word, KK is where the home is 🙂

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