I feel terribly uneasy. I wanted to share everything here but I can’t. This is way to personal. But I am quite disappointed with myself. Why am I making myself vulnerable? Why can’t I just wear my shield like I used to? Why do I have to be trapped in this dimension? Can I get out of this? I don’t want to get hurt anymore. I don’t want to feel the knife in my heart again, those sharp pointing edges you feel. I don’t want to bleed anymore. I had enough. Please don’t get me through this again. I am not getting immune to it, despite I am getting weaker by it. So please go away.

I need my space. I need time to get over it. I need my time to concentrate what’s matter the most now, my studies. I need to break even this year for all the heartache. I don’t want any more heartache burden this year. Please go away.

Please don’t make it harder for me. iDa please get up from your dream. U need to step to to reality, pronto.