Trying to forget something in the past will not end the ties with it.
Not trying to be melancholy over it here, I know it ended harshly & a lil bit cruel of me to do that to push away everything but everything happened for a reason. I pushed away because I don’t want it to get hurt by the present force (imagine: 2 electrons would not attracted to each other. both will battle over proton? erk. bad example ).
So by letting go of one to avoid trouble with the current seems to be my best choice to move on.
I’m deeply sorry if it cause any inconvenience.
I read the news today regarding the unfortunate one. A condolence from me. God almighty!
A poem from Odes;
Tu ne quaesieris, scire nefas, quem mihi, quem tibi
finem di dederint, Leuconoe, nec Babylonios
temptaris numeros. ut melius, quidquid erit, pati.
seu pluris hiemes seu tribuit Iuppiter ultimam,
quae nunc oppositis debilitat pumicibus mare
Tyrrhenum: sapias, vina liques et spatio brevi
spem longam reseces. dum loquimur, fugerit invida
aetas: carpe diem quam minimum credula postero.