My hormone is playing games again with my mind. I am feeling awful upon returning to Penang. Not that certain encounter right after I tested my new racquet but it’s just that I need to stop the playing games in my mind.

I am very vulnerable as of now. My wall is down. Torn down. My heart changes and i can’t focus on things. I mentioned before that I’m deciding to reside in Penang, but I am feeling like I want to go back to Kuala Lumpur. and maybe back to Kota Kinabalu.

The decision fluctuates. I can’t hold on to anything concrete anymore.

My life is a mess. I need to get away from my usual-routine. I need some impulsiveness in my daily life.

Starting by sleeping early tonight.

I need introspection intervention.